Day #9 – What are your motives?

 

Every single thing that we do, whether we believe our intentions to be good or bad, is powered by a motive. It is how we are as humans. The big motives, we are quite aware of, even if they’re secret. But what about the smaller stuff? The subconscious motives? The ones that are ruling our actions and desires but that we’re not paying any attention to? We live such busy and stressful lives we are always chasing answers that we already have beating inside us. If we look deeper inside ourselves, honestly, and question our motives, we can save a lot of time. Is what you’re dreaming of going to satisfy you? Is it the answer? Do you actually even want what you think you want?! You need to know, so your actions have conviction. There is always a motive at the core. There is nothing wrong with that. We need to become aware of ourselves. Our motives. Acknowledge them.

What are my motives?

I want to make things better. On every level and in every sense. I want to help people. Emotionally and financially. I want to fight until things change. I want to inspire the people around me to do the same. I want to shake things up. I want to prove to people that we can all make a difference.

I love music. I love it’s power. It’s ability to evoke emotion. It’s playful.Β It’s something that has resonated with me since I was a young teenager and no matter what I have done, no matter what other route I have tried, I always come back to this. I need to be a singer.

When I was younger, much younger, I vaguely tried the latter. But I didn’t really know how. I auditioned for weird stuff. I auditioned to work in DisneyLand Paris when I was 18 and failed because my monkey dancing skills weren’t up to scratch. I wish I was kidding. I looked around me and was surrounded by a bunch of all singing, all dancing kids straight out of stage school and I thought to myself, ‘I have no chance in this industry, against these people’ and stopped trying. I didn’t want to waste years of my life chasing ‘success’. I couldn’t be bothered.

I still had this raging desire to fix the world so I took up politics. As you do… After investing 4 years, I discovered, that I didn’t want to waste years of my life in a bureaucratic, archaic, corrupt system working for people I don’t believe in.

I went to a dark place. A disillusioned place. An ignorant place actually. I gave up. I joined in with the millions of other people out there and decided that I couldn’t do anything. I was a small fish in a big ocean. My dreams meant jack sh*t. Get on with it.

But the thing is with dreams, real ones, is that they don’t just go away. If you don’t act on them, you start to fill with regret. That sucks. Who the hell wants to be full of regret?! We get one life. One chance.

I don’t want to be a massive successful singer for personal material gain, or personal recognition or a ‘nicer’ lifestyle. Don’t get me wrong, I’m all over mega holidays. I love that sun. And the thought of providing my family with a secure home, well that’s just normal right? In New York? Don’t mind if i do. I have realised that none of that matters. I have everything I need right here. I am surrounded by the best people and am incredibly fortunate. I want to be a massive successful singer because of the opportunities it opens up. It quenches both of my dreams at the same time. I can be creative and indulge myself in music. I can also use my voice for a greater good. When you’re in the spotlight, your voice is heard a hell of a lot quicker and louder. I’m serious. I want to change things. Help people. En masse.

Yes it is also about the money. I want to Robin Hood the hell out of it.

Write down your motives. Keep them in mind and use them to keep you on track. Don’t forget why you set out on your journey in the first place. X

 

 

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2 responses to “Day #9 – What are your motives?

  1. This is a great reminder not to give up on what’s important. Even if that changes throughout your life. Sometimes, when a door closes, its the push we need to look for the next one. πŸ™‚

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